The sixth sense

Rumor has it, that women have a sixth sense.

I don't believe in witchcraft, voodoos and card readers... but I do actually believe that women have something like a gut intuition.

Everytime this feeling inside me grows I know for a fact that something that is not going to please me is going to happen.

I have felt a break-up 24 hours in advance, every single time. Sometimes even before the guy knew he wanted to leave me. I have always felt it when someone cheated on me, and I always knew when a friend betrayed me.

Maybe I am just really good in reading people or maybe I just have this sixth sense... but sometimes I really wish I didn't. 

Have you ever blamed yourself for a break-up? Told yourself that if you would have acted differently, that if you have told him just how you feel everything could have been different?

Some relationships are hard to forget. They are in the past and the grass has grown over them but sometimes you just start wondering... what if?

What if I had given up my life for him... what if I had invested a little more into our relationship... what if I had moved to the same country??? All questions that will never have answers. 

But today I read a quote that made me realise something that I had not understood for a long time. "If you love someone, you would be willing to give up your whole life for them. But if they loved you back, they would never ask you to!"

I always thought I had made the mistakes. I should have just ran head first through the wall, do the big jump and risk it all. But now I know... if it is really love then I shouldn't have to give up my life and my dreams for this one person... because this one person would be my life and my dreams.

Maybe I do have a gut feeling for break-ups, bad news and heartache moments... or maybe I just realise the truth that I have been hiding from myself.