Meeting the "New" Girl

Last night when I went out I accidentally bumped into one of my ex-boyfriends.... and his new girlfriend.

We have been broken up for ages and we don't have any hard feelings towards each other. I am happy in my new relationship and haven't actually thought about him in a really long time.
But... and yes there is a but, it still felt very weird meeting his new girlfriend.

It's not that I am jealous seeing him in a new relationship and I can in full honesty say that I am in no way attracted to him anymore, but the moment he introduced her to me I started comparing.

So she has brown eyes and is about the same size as me... I see he hasn't changed his hunting pattern... but then you start wondering if he also buys her flowers every now and then to surprise her, does he also imitate voices to her when she is sad... does he cuddle the same way he has with you and does he feel the same way when they kiss.

All these questions haunt your head and at the end of the day it all sums up to one question "Is she better than me?"

Relationships don't work out for many reasons, but the main one is just that you weren't meant to be together. Of course admitting that it just wasn't supposed to be is no easy task when you have spent days and nights crying and wondering what you could have done differently to keep him close to you.

I adore my boyfriend. I think he cares about me and I never worry about his sincerity towards me. And yet, when I saw my ex-boyfriend new girlfriend I wondered: "If I would have bitten my lip the way she does and if I would have touched his arms just like she does would he have stayed? Could we be celebrating our anniversary if I would have flicked my hair like that, or batted my eyelashes like this?" Stupid questions. Questions that don't even matter.

But then he said something that caught me off track: "We are getting married".

It's not that I want to get married right in this instant, and I am a hundred percent sure that he is definitely not the man I wanted to spent the rest of my life with but still... this permanent question is haunting my head "Why her and not me? Why was I not good enough?"

I do believe it is a matter of self confidence and I do believe that all women dread the moment they have to meet the girl that is loving the man you used to fall asleep next to...

But when my phone rang and I saw my boyfriends name on my phone, I suddenly didn't care anymore. Thank God I wasn't good enough, because now I have someone a million times better.
One thing is for sure, it is much easier meeting the "New Girl" when you have found a "New better boy" long before!!!